Once upon
a
Sleepytime...
...the useless rambling of jen olive
i'm back :)
The other day someone - and not just any someone - but someone close to me - had the audacity to tell me that I have no idea what it feels like to have my heart broken...
To that person I have one question:
Have you MET me?!
I think this was said to hurt me. I didn't like it.
Sabotage
So, I have one of these T-Mobile stick thing-ys that you put in your USB port for internet.
At first I thought this was really cool, cuz I can take it anywhere and get online. Have addiction will travel.
BUt then a few days ago, I get this message from T-Mobile saying I've breached my Fair Use Policy - whatever that means... but the penalty for that is that I can't do any heavy internet use between the hours of 4pm and midnight.
Translation: I can't write in this book unitl after midnight even if I want to do it earlier because my site with all of its' moving parts is considered "heavy".
So, while I'm here in the UK, I'm being forced to stay up late.
Forced!
Is there no relief for an insomniac?
Haha :)
right... so
this could take a while.
i have all manner of remedies:
herbal
vitamin
mineral
alcohol
and while it does seem to take the edge off... i can tell this isn't going to be easy. because it's all over my life, isn't it? it is.
i said this already. i know. it's everywhere.
i spend a great deal of time with astronauts and aliens. and the usual course is this:
we investigate. we orbit. then we land. we compare. and trade. and decide. yes or no.
my planet is littered with artifacts of all kinds. buried in the dirt. hidden in the trees. hanging in the air. everywhere i go, there's something. it makes things difficult doesn't it? to have so much evidence? i'm not innocent. but i'm not guilty either.
he could profess
if summer stays as it is
the days will remain too hot and too long
i want to know everything
like you do of me
i want to be closest
to the darkestpoint
the deepestpain
the shameful truth
but
i know what will and wont happen
i know what can and cannot be said
i'll always wonder
i keep trying
there
just
isn't
anything
to say...
